Friend: I feel like I am losing it a bit. How do I operate in a world that I’m really trying to understand while also understanding, “The more I seek the more lost I feel?” It’s a never ending spiral. And I know you talk all the time about how to just relax and open up to the guidance of the Holy Spirit, becoming aware and mind-watching, but thought is always there even to tell us we are aware. Even experience is thought. Is there life without thought?
Even to observe thought is thought, like you are thinking about the fact you are observing thought. Is it just a matter of practicing? But if all is now then what’s the point of practicing. And I know all of these questions are the problem, but I don’t know what to do? I can’t escape the thoughts and I’ve tried, but thought always comes back. So do I just lay down and do nothing, and wait for the inevitable, or, I don’t know.
Dylan: Yeah, thanks for bringing up these points. All of Heaven is always in excitement when you are willing to get clear in mind. I always feel the Holy Spirit dancing within when there is an opportunity to turn to Him.
For myself, I also entered this period of intellectualisation, where the voice of the devil is trying to understand the Self in Christ beyond itself. How does fear understand Perfect Love? So, it is here that the devil’s thoughts suggest to you that everything is limited to its thoughts, and that there is nothing outside of or beyond the devil and its thoughts.
Through prayer and communion with the Holy Spirit, your focus and attention is shifted from the level of the world to the level of mind. This is because what is done, perceived and felt emotionally comes from what is thought and believed in the mind.
I remember I would read versus like, “I say to you that whoever looks at a woman to lust for her has already committed adultery with her.” Matthew 5:27 I would bring this to the Holy Spirit and I realised that Jesus was bringing our attention to the mind. If the voice of the adversary was suggesting lustful thoughts as temptation, and we had an attraction to those thoughts, we had already committed adultery because action proceeds thought. Action is an involuntary effect of what is being thought and believed. It was here that I understood why we are encouraged to “take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ,” 2 Corinthians 10:5 and why it is important to be “transformed by the renewing of your mind.“ Romans 12:2
Throughout this transitional phase, opening to the complete surrender of the voice of the devil and its self of sin to full acceptance of the Self in Christ, there is the intellectualisation of spiritual pointers. The mind is still very misidentified with the voice of the devil, so it still equates itself with the characteristics of the devil and misperceives the devil’s false thoughts of influence as one’s thoughts. Through the Holy Spirit’s Wisdom and Discernment, you open to calmly observing the voice of the enemy and its unloving thoughts with non-judgement. This is often called mind-watching.
The purpose of the enemy is to distract you from God, therefore, the devil joins in on the seeming spiritual journey and suggests, “Oh, you’re trying to transcend me? I’ve had you hooked for a millennia. Good luck, because there is nothing beyond me. There is only me. I am you and you are me.“
The purpose of the Holy Spirit is the complete surrender of the voice of the enemy and its self on sin through forgiveness. Forgiveness, in the broader meaning, means tracing the lack of peace seen in the world back to the great deceiver in mind. The purpose of the Holy Spirit is to have you calmly look upon the arising unloving thoughts without judgement. In this space, the voice of the great deceiver, when brought before the Truth of God, can be exposed and recognised as false. When the attraction to it and its fruits are withdrawn, one can overlook it in exchange for the Inspired Thoughts of the Holy Spirit. In its most direct meaning, forgiveness is the complete non-attraction to the voice of the great deceiver and its effects, in which it is overlooked entirely. This looks like a process until it is just recognised as one moment of complete surrender and Grace.
In this gentle observation with the Holy Spirit, He discerns the false from the true, what is of the devil and what is of God. When you realise that most of the thoughts in mind are of the devil—all equally unreal—you then recognise the falsity of the that voice when it is contrasted with the Power of God. The valuing of and misidentification with the voice of the enemy and its false self of sin was the only seeming error. You took on false responsibility for these false thoughts, where you then thought that you were your own god and experienced the false effects of spiritual death.
All spiritual teachings and words are but pointers to an actual experience. The experience of that you are not the devil but the child of a Living Father. You can only get apples from apple trees. What is of the flesh is flesh and what is of the Spirit is Spirit. What is of the devil is spiritual death and what is of God is spiritual Life and Abundance.
In this recognition, there is no need to try and get rid of any thought, escape any thought, stop any thought; instead, there is a gentle and soft allowance, a non-judgemental observation of what is false with the awareness that it is not of God, they are not my Real and Inspired Thoughts of God.
As I remember a beautiful tweet you posted about the ego being the thinker of thoughts. The voice of the devil, being fruitless, has no value. As the value and devotion in the voice of the enemy is withdrawn, one places devotion correctly in God, Who is all valuable.
In terms of, “What should I do?” Relax, sweet one, relax. in prayer, all the realisations and “aha” moments will come to you without effort, without actively trying to force something yourself. In this relaxation, everything comes to you; a paradox to how you have been accustomed to know things.
You are right where you need to be right in this moment. The Holy Spirit is the how and will seem to do all the work guiding you, until you come to a point where you accept your Self in Him.
Friend: Thank you so much. I just need to relax. I really need to chill out. But one more question, lol, how do you feel about desires? I know these human bodies can survive on way less than I consume, but is it wrong to like a variety of tastes or even things, and wanting to have certain experiences? Is it possible this is just the world I want to create? Take manifestation for example, (well manifesting what you actually want) if the objective is to disconnect from ego-thoughts then is it wrong to try to control your thoughts to gain desires?
Dylan: That is a great question. In this sense, it comes back down to purpose—what is it for? Desire can be seen, initially, as a ladder. If the mind is focused on specifics, then you can only desire in terms of specifics. “I desire a car park. I desire this type of partner.”
If you have a desire for something, it is most practical and right for you to say, “Okay Holy Spirit, right now I have this desire/to manifest this, because I believe this is what brings me happiness and pleasure.” Here, you aren’t trying to act like you don’t desire something you currently do.
In this honesty, the Holy Spirit will meet you where you believe you are and will use these desires as a stepping-stone to God. Following the Holy Spirit and these intuitive prompts will seem to lead you up the ladder to the top, where you can step off the ladder and see that there was never a ladder. Then, you can ultimately see that, “Ah, my happiness can’t really be found in anything temporal like manifestation, food, sight, places or sex. Yet, now I see that these were appropriate stepping-stones so that I could realise that my eternal Happiness and Pleasure is sourced from God in the Self I am in Christ.”
Manifesting, trying to create your reality as if you know what is best for yourself, is exchanged for accepting the Reality of God. “Father, what is Your Will for me?” You can see that this is an abstract prayer, in contrast to, “Help me please get a parking spot.” The specifics, the split desires for something other than the Peace of God, gives way to a singular desire for Peace, a singular desire for God, just as Jesus stated, “Let thine Eye be single.”
With a singular desire, you realise that the Self in Christ is the Will of God. His Will is for Complete Happiness, Peace and Love that are experienced in Him, a complete surrender of self to accept the Self in Christ. When your Will is God’s, You must experience the immediate fulfilment of that prayer, because He has already given you everything in Him. You already are in Christ what you are looking for in the world, therefore, it takes no time to fully accept the Self in Christ! Thank you God for Grace. Amen.
One Silent Mind 